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Name: Sarah Louise
Country: United States
State: Pennsylvania
Birthday: 7/13/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: missions, ministry, God, guitar, music, tattoos, writing, movies, reading & ultimate frizbee
Expertise: i have no area of expertise yet. i probably never will, and im pretty okay with that.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
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AIM:  freedomofworship
Member Since:
11/10/2003
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| Im sick of people. Okay, not all people, but a lot. Excuse me for just
a few minutes while I vent. Klepto struck again this weekend. You may
be wondering... what the crap is a Klepto. Theres a girl on our hall
that we have so lovingly named her 'Klempo.' All year long we've had
stuff gone missing on our hall. Mainly digital cameras, my roommates
wallet, ect. This weekend she struck again. 5 laptops, a play station
2, my digital camera along with $20 out of my wallet. Yes, I am pissed,
but Im more on the grateful side of things because I still have my
laptop, and my whole wallet isnt gone.
The girls on the hall have started what Donna and the rest of us call a
'Witch Hunt.' I understand that there stuff was stolen, Im right there
with them. But that does not give you the right to chew out our RA
Donna who is amazing, to insult the Dean of Residence Life's
intelligence and tell the Detective on the case information that has
NOTHING to do with anything. All you're doing is making yourself look
stupid.
Don't get me wrong, I want Klepto to be found, to be punished, to get
punched in the face. She's put our hall through a lot of crap and
because of her I had to have my room searched last night. But the girls
on the hall are taking things to the extreme. Theres been so much
gossip, so much backstabing. I know the girls want more action to be
taken, I want that too, and theyre going in the right direction by
searching rooms, but the witch hunt needs to end. They're searching for
any name, any slightest gesture in the wrong direction. You walk out of
someones room and youre stared at. This is rediculous and its not
needed. Klepto needs to be found, yes, but the witch hunt needs to end.
God has shown me a lot of things through this situation. First of all,
Love. Dont get me wrong, I want to punch Klepto repeatedly in the face,
but thats not how Christ would handle the situation. I know that this
is not my battle, its a battle between Klepto's heart and God. She'll
get whats coming to her, I have no doubt about that. I just dont know
what will come to her. If its prosecution, good, if its reuniting with
Christ after being away from Him, thats even greater. Some probably
dont see it that way, but I just have a peace about all this. I know
that we serve a just God who punishes.
Its been a rough weekend, and its going to continue to be a rough week.
20 page John paper, 7 page psych paper, 5 page youth paper, & 10
youth outlines. Its all caving in at once and its rough but I know that
it'll all get done. God's awesome like that. Just please pray for me
that God will give me the motivation to press on, to finish the race
strong, to not just cave in and give up. I just want to give up but
unfortunately cant.
Pray for peace on my residence hall. Its gone psychotic and needs prayer.
Peace, not fear.
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| I feel like things are crashing. Just like the time my dad picked up a
box full of my moms school stuff and slammed in into the wall and
everything went flying. Its hard to describe. I feel low. I dont know
how to accept love. I wish I could say that I use to know how to, but I
never have. How is one suppose to understand love when one is never
shown it?
How is it possible that God is love? How can a Being be the definition
of love? How is that possible? I want to say its not, but I know
better. I know better because theres an Abba Father who wraps me in His
arms every night.
Theres hate and disconnection everywhere. In sociology today we talked
about school shootings. In the last week there were schools in Alaska,
Jersey and Kansas who had groups of boys that were arrested for
planning Columbine type attacts. Together as a class we wrote an essay
on why this is happening, whats contributing to it and how is the
school, family and church able to help.
Love. No, that is not the total answer, but what would happen if the
family started to actually love one another in stead of throwing things
at each other and yelling? What would happen if the church stopped
closing its doors to those who are 'different,' you know, those kids
who wear all black and wear the spikes around there necks... the type
of kid I was in jr. high? I know a Pastor back home, his wife was
one of my teachers and a mentor, who was kicked out of his
church because he was inviting and reaching out to those type of people
who are 'different.' He was kicked out. He wasnt trying to disrupt the
church, to turn it upside down, he was just trying to show the love of
Christ. He was kicked out because he was trying to show the love of
Christ. Theres something seriously wrong with this picture.
How have we come to this? How has muslim become more respected as a
religion than christianity? Christianity has become a joke in todays
society. We have people running around saying there christian all the
while murdering, stealing, whoring themselves out on the streets.
Chrisitanity is a joke to so many.
How are we every suppose to reach people like Christin, a girl on my
hall who analyses everything about christianity, when theres people,
'christians' on my hall, who are the worst type of example of what a
christian is. She looks at those people, sees them call them selves
christians, and thinks to herself, if thats what a christian is, what a
christian does, i dont want to have any part of it.
We have defaced every sense of the word 'christian.'
Is there any hope of turning it around?
*sorry, today is an 'i hate the way the church functions' kinda day.
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| Im resurrecting this xanga from the dead. Yes, thats right, Jesus isnt
the only one who can be resurrected. (I hope that didnt sound too
blasphemous, nevermind, it totally did.)
I remember starting this xanga about a month into my Freshman year. Its
been a long time since then, Ive grown up a lot since then. Its all so
crazy to think about. Its sad to think that I dont even talk anymore to
the person that made me start this thing. Its so weird that I actually
remembered the password to be back in here.
Life is so confusing right now. God should give me a big neon signed
with an arrow pointing me in which direction to go. I bet it would
point upward. Because He is the only direction we are to follow. But
its so hard when you need answers and youre not getting them. Im sick
of worrying. Im sick of wondering. Im sick of wishing.
The thought of another summer at LCCC is starting to scare me.
The thought of spending the entire summer with Natada excites me.
The thought of working with Jamin for the entire summer makes me cringe.
The thought of getting to be JimPaul's assistant makes me smile, but I probably wont get to position.
The thought of doing SLD for another year scares me more than thoughts of LCCC.
Its cool though, God has been teaching me a lot about peace. The
absence of peace is fear. Im not to be fearful, Im suppose to live in
peace.
"Peace I leave you. My peace I give you. I do not give to you as
the world gives. Your heart must not be troubled or fearful." John 14:27
Isnt that cool? We're called to be at peace.
peace n.
- The absence of war or other hostilities.
- An agreement or a treaty to end hostilities.
- Freedom from quarrels and disagreement; harmonious relations: roommates living in peace with each other.
- Public security and order: was arrested for disturbing the peace.
- Inner contentment; serenity: peace of mind. (dicitonary.com)
I love that: "Inner contentment; serenity; peace of mind." We're called
to be content in our hearts. We're called to have peace of mind, peace
of heart.
Amazing stuff.
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